Little Thing Called Love

"Love like letting someone into your room, even when it’s a mess. It’s embarassing, and they can see what a wreck you’ve made of everything. You try to push things under the bed, and into the closet so they won’t see. But they discover those things anyway, help you clean, and put them right back where they belong"
Quoted it from someone....
And I know it will be long 'till I'm ready to do that...
Cause I'm afraid of letting anyone get into my 'room'...
Anyone...
No one I wish for...
No exception...
yet...

How Do I Say?

I walking away try to hide what inside. I mocking you I always try to stay away
And when we cross the path I pretend and fake like I don’t care so I know you’ll heard that ‘I don’t like you baby’
You come closer “I don’t care.” You sit closer, still try to not care. You suddenly gone. “Yes I care.”

The truth I always high when you around. I just don’t how to act cause baby I’m losing my mind; I miss you, I need you but then how do I say it?

Act so nonchalant every time she’s around you. Though that I look fine my heart burning inside
I could only put a smile above my rage I never had the guts to make you know that I like you baby, don’t you know that I like you baby?
You come closer, yes I care. You sit closer, my heart race, you suddenly gone yes I break

Maybe I not pretty I’m just a geek with a guitar on her hands
But I least I can sing this song I made for you

Cause baby I will always fly with you all around. I will always wrong in act cause baby you turning my mind

How do I say.mp3

Siding You

Falling down the hole of a beautiful mistake and I found you
Illusion of colors blurring my undefined world when I found you
You are the best thing in the world right when I found you baby
So I will never let you I won’t ever let you fall
But then you cut me down you let me fall down the hole

That day I walked out the door and still wishing that you’re okay
You’re act so nonchalant and yet I still wish that you care
But yes I faked the rage to hide the truth that I still care to you
And now I try to fix the way my heart siding you

Riding back to town the second you call and said that you want me
You were crying in my arm but it was her name that you said
Realize your heart now get so far away
You still the best thing here that I ever found
You’re the best thing

And even you tore my heart apart and kick it off the ground
You know the door will always open you know my heart will always open
You know my faith will always on you, you know

Though you had left on the side of road called pain
As long as I breathe I won’t give up on you

That day I walked out the door I knew I would left my heart there
I kindda miss you but you just so far away
And yes you’re right on my lap but I know it’s her on you head so it’ll be a waste for me to change the way of my heart from siding you


new lyric, song come up soon :)

Am I Really Gonna Change?

I had this conversation one day with my friend. We were actually talking about his girlfriend but then I turned...somewhere else which made me think about it afterward.

Me : She's change, you know after being with you. In positive way I mean.
My Friend.: Really? Well then everybody's change when they're dating.
Me : (Raised my eyebrows in disagreement) I won't, at least not that extreme.(In my mind: Why would I want to change into that sweet and soft girl just because I had a boyfriend?)
My Friend: Well I bet you will. You just won't realize it.

Until yesterday I do believe I won't change and that conversation was starting to fade away from my mind. The thing is that last night dream made me think about it again this morning.
"I was on the arcade with friends. I was having fun until I suddenly started searching for somewhere. Somebody asked who am I searching for but I couldn't verbalize the name. I could only say 'my boyfriend'. (Hell, I don't have any boyfriend. But, Okay, this is dream so just let it go how it wants.) Then I started to get panic and grumbled when I realized that I had to search for him on the whole mall. Great. But when I stepped out from the arcade I found him walked toward me. Jeez, I never knew that I could be so damn stupid but I ran straight to his embrace (damn this stupid dream) and after that I just couldn't get away from him. It was like I don't want to get anywhere far from him"
Okay, ever since I woke up I couldn't erase the feeling and the thought that the dream was actually stupidly fun and pleased. I've never been so much in love but it was just a dream for God Sake!
Okay, the point is; Am I really gonna change if I really had a boyfriend one day? I don't want to be that sticky and too depends on him. I imagine that when I had a boyfriend then both of us would be just as independent as we used to with addition each of us inside each of us' heads. I imagine I wouldn't want him all the time, I would just has him as someone who would help me through anything that come for me. But seriously, being so sticky and depending? That would be so not me! Mark my word;

"If I do change into that soft depending sweet girl then it means I'm going crazy"

You can drag me to the nearest asylum if you think that necessary. 

Anyway, I do think about these questions;

     

 

Alone (New Song I made)

The day you came around, I got sparks inside my heart

You caught me into your arms, made think that world was bright

I was falling way too deep until I opened up the masks

But you cut me down…..

You and I….

You and I alone, we no longer friend, you and I alone

Different roads are found we’re separate, you and I alone

I closed my eyes and threw the past, you and I alone

Now let me sew my heart cause it wounded up when we are alone

Here comes the rain and I’m aching here and it become worst when I see your tears

Can we go alone, from now?

You and I alone, we’re no longer friend, you and I alone

You and I alone, we’re no longer mates, you and I alone

You and I alone, we’re no longer lover, you and I alone

But can we go alone, yes you can but can I go alone?

Alone (The song I made, click here to download)

N.B: Don't mind the noise please :) 

A Bowl Of Noodles

 

A Bowl Of Noodles

It's just a bowl of noodles

but it's my mom's serve

so it's not just a bowl of noodles

In this bowl of noodles

I got drown in memories

when I got bowls of noodles

and my mom at home for rest

a bowl of noodles

that night

feels like bowls of loves

because it's my mom's serve

and it's my mom's bowl of noodles 

I Adore 'em (Part 1)

Friends and friendship are hard things to explain. There are a lot of ups and downs along with it even in the very first of the acquaintance. But one thing I'm deathly sure about it is that I adore these peoples called friends. Not just because they are there as friends but because what they are and what they had inside...

Tyana Rahestrie
I adore her, my little bunny :P. Everybody loves her, she know how to get along, she know how to act in the middle of any situation and she's adoreable. She might be petit, somehow look fragile but somewhere within she know how to survive even in the hardest scenario. She didn't think like a girl used to think. She didn't put emotion above logic which made her become that strong girl I know. I Adore My Little Bunny :) 
 
 Irawati Ayu Rembulan
My Ex-Chairmate :) She's talkative, can't stay put on one place with one thing and yet when her mood goes down she would turn soooo damn creepy :p. I adore her with her confident. She's smart, such a loyal friend and most of it, I adore her mind that always goes out of the box :) She's fashionable and always successfully made me feel so messy when I stand beside her. I adore my Ex-Chairmate :)

  Sarri Setiyowardhani
Little Miss Cutie/Emo (Random) Yeah, cut yet she had such a hard heart and head :p She's childish but somehow there are some points when she seemed to know what she really want more than the other. I adore her courage on spilling out what's on her mind without mind the time, place or situation. All I know, she's brave and even though she used to lost her way and point of view but once she made it, she know she mean it. I adore my lil' miss cutie/emo :) 

 Debby Damayanti
My Model Wanna be :) She's funny! Really! She's beautiful, friendly and really, really funny. I don't know whether she meant it but every words that came out from her mouth always something...unexpected in funny ways. I adore her beauty and her funny thought :) Honestly, I really think she could be a model one day. I adore my model wanna be :)  
 Kenanga Wungu
My Queen! I don't know why but I adore her so much. For me, she's a perfect figure of wife, she's creative, kind, friendly and it seems like she sees the world with beauty perspective which made herself beautiful as well. I adore the way she always look perfect and well-organize. In fact, I adore everything about her. I look up at her but well, I can't be like her though. If I can read aura she would be all over pink and peach. That's just her and I adore my Queen :)

 Endah Pangestuti
My Miss Glommy! LOL, I know, that's not a really nice name but she somehow always look gloomy. But well, she's really nice! She's just as logical as she's emotional. I adore the way she always notice about her friends and the way she stay strong when bad things come. Oh, one wonderful thing; she really really well-organized. She seems like had a beat with time :) I adore my miss gloomy :) 
 Theofani R. R
My Miss Adorable! Wow, I can't forget how much boys that ran toward you :p and just how slow your connection is. LOL. No pun intended, okay? Anyway, Fanny is such a sweet friendly girl. She's nice to everyone and so I adore her sweetness and her charm :) A lot of guy annoy her but still she smile on them and what I adore the most is her positive way of thinking! I adore my miss adorable :) 

Ariani Dwi Puteri
  My Miss Intended Smile :p Always, her smile means something and I had no dictionary to enterprise it. Anyway, she's such a fun girl, good at basketball and tough one. I adore her courage and her power! Even though she sometimes act grumpy she's actually had a soft heart -according to me ;p- I adore my Miss Intended Smile :)

Azalia Zatadini
My Miss Doraemon! Yeay! She loves Doraemon sooo much until sometimes I'm wondering; which one she loves the most? Doreaemon or her boy-friend? Lol, just random question. So, Azza is such a sweet girl, fun and active. She seems so in to social activities. I adore her matureness and her wonderful mind. She seems to know what she want exactly and had a good sense for which one is good and which one is bad. I adore my Miss Doraemon!!

 I Adore You

So, there goes the first part and hopefully I'll add the second part :) But since I got exams for a week....

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